Monday, October 31, 2005

mood: its raining inside me
jukebox: that's when i love you - aslyn


Ton out for two nights in a row. I'm dead. Pimples outbreak. Lack of sleep. Getting all heated up. Mood swings. Arghz. I don't know what the hell I want. Don't know what the hell people want from me either. =( I'm all moody, upset & confuse. Took a runaway from home on Friday night. Fed up with maple and my mom screaming at home. Cousin called and asked me for mahjong, so I just ran out. Otherwise I rather stay home to maple or sleep. I just love my baby. Took the first meal of the day at my aunt's place late at night. =\ After that watched my anime then mahjong with his friend and my aunt. Sianz. They play darn slow. I could msn + mahjong at the same time without even having to look at my tiles. LoLz. I won~ Made my cousin empty his box twice. =x Only I won all lost to me. Haha...my lucky seat? In front of my cousin's com with mp3 + my msn on. ^_^ Before that I was the one losing and his friend winning lorx. Keke...Play till 3+ then my aunt buay ta han she went to sleep. Then I watched my Inuyasha movie and not even half way through, my cousin and friend fell asleep. =S Left me to watch alone. After that, too lazy to off his com, we left it on whole night like what he always do. =x Slept at 5+, 7+ my aunt came in kp at my cousin. zZz. All moms the same? @#@$%^$% Sleeping come in kp for what. Not like she dunno we slept late. After that my elder cousin came in make noise at the younger one also. zzzz. Fed up, I woke up sleeping only 3hrs +. Slacked at his house, took pic with my baby~ Weee~~ uploaded in my friendster. ^_^ Then went Bugis to meet Jor. I was freaking late for one hour all thanks to my cousin. Never so late before can! I hate meeting friends late. Late for work, late for school, that's another story. =x Went arcade, our game was taken!! So long queue somemore. Somewhat see liao sianz. Lost the mood to play. Jor asked me to challenge but I so lazy then after, pulled her back to my grandma's place for dinner with me. Sianz. Went back too early. We were the first there with nothing to do. zZz. Rotted till my other aunts, uncles, cousins came then had dinner.

After dinner, sat around awhile more then we left. Walked to Tiong Bahru Plaza and bought our bubble tea. Then walked to the bus stop to take bus all the way to Tampines to meet Lemonie, puppyluv01 & Zevil. Half way walking, saw the bus from afar, then we race to the bus stop and I won~ Wootz. But darn tired. I'm not the running kind. Can ask me swim but don't get me to run. =\ We talked cock in the bus...passed by little India, that crazy zha bor wana get down the bus do henna. zZz. From the traffic jam, don't even know will late anot. If go down do henna, take bus again, that one confirm late. So gave up the idea. I look so lok cok. *shrugs* Met up with all liao then walked to a coffeeshop to talk cock. Zevil reminded me of Anti from his actions. =S Pulled Jor to 7-11 with me when I saw that. Then also dunno what I want, just bought ice cream and she got mash potato. LoLz. I had 2ice creams + a tummy ache after that. =\ Saw Mr President. LoLz. Even after deleting each other from buddy list due to insufficient slots, I still see him in person! Haha...small small world we have. Then after they left, the 6 of us sat there continue to rot. Left the coffeeshop at 5+ to slack at a playground. The stars at Tampines are much nicer than my house lorx~ Cloud cover at my house so thick always cannot see the. =( Had a nice time lying at the playground seeing my stars. Hehz. 6+ all headed back home to sleep while I reach home only to find myself sleepless despite being so tired. Saw the sun liao cannot sleep logic. Who understands? =\ Then went maple and found my account hacked. zZz. So went to bed finally at 10+. I'm moodless. Totally, seriously, don't make me throw/flare my temper at you later in the day/night.

Woke up at 12+ to my mom's singing at my sis again. zZz. Slept 2hrs only lorx! *grumbles* Somemore wake up no com use. My sis using. zzz. Stone around then shoo my sis off the com. Think I'm gonna clear my mage's list. Strip my mage naked and wait for the hacker to take over. Must thank Rabbit for the wiz wand and magic shoe. Otherwise I only got the clothes. Since I got hack, I'm gonna train my sin liaoz. Maybe clear off the list. Leaving only a few people to talk to...or maybe not? Then perhaps got more heart on training than talking in buddy chat all the time. And lemonie told me not to call him dear anymore. Therefore, not even a word of bf, dear or whatsoever in this entry. Quoted from last night. "and butter u shld change ur habit of kping -.- " thanks arhz. But I always kp. Since day 1. If I don't its so not me. Plus, my account got hacked, if I don't kp what am I to do? Keep quiet over it? Perhaps I dunno how to express my feelings except to kp. Even though I like that person, I also kp at that person. If I don't, it simply means I don't like nor can be bothered with you. Perhaps I'm not known well enough to you. If it so doesn't work, it doesn't. There's no happiness if you try to force it out. I'm not gonna try and neither am I gonna try anymore. Fuck the word L.O.V.E. There's no such thing as love. I'm upset happy that my account got hack and lost most of my items. It helps me not to touch my mage and concentrate on my sin instead. Quote - "u know i even bought a extra holycross earring for u" followed by "zzzzzzzzzzzzz" I don't know what made you said that. Maybe Zevil told you I passed him the items you gave me. Asking him to help me return to you. Otherwise I can't think of other reasons why you would msn me that. I was seriously lost. Saw that and stoned in front of my com. I don't know what to reply you...when I wanted to reply, you went off. Msn me that and left. Perhaps something I did upsetted you...sorry bahz. I could never do anything right. =( And with regards to my habit of kping, will depend on my mood bahz. If you look at chat history, I keep quiet and not kp a word, you guys get all so worked up saying something's wrong with me. Maybe I should just try bahz. I know lots of people don't like me till they got used to me. Its fine and absolutely alright with me. Nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

in search of a better me...

Thought of you at... |10/31/2005 02:27:00 am|

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.LoVe Me.


*MiCheLLe*
*single*
*twentyfour*
*231083*

.DeSiReS.


*slim down*
*psp slim*
*W910i red*
*new external hard disk*
*new hairstyle*
*holiday*
*flying colours*
*driving license*
*Boo*



.RaNtS.