*waves* yoz. i'm kinda like back for awhile. things been real bad and sucky for me. things aint smooth at all. i'm on de verge of breaking down again. cuttin myself up and all. mia-ed online for quite some time, pon work on both saturday n sunday, days when we're busiest. didn't bother much, nor thought about the consequences. =x anyhows, went back to work today. yeah, of course people will ask what happened and all. I was sort of given another chance and work again. kinda glad Joell's off today. somehow, i seriously dun like to see her at work. It just gives me the sucky feeling. talked to Kristin about work today and gave her a explaination too. heard from Nadea that Joell and Jordan's only workin for Kristin and once Kristin gets transferred back to Kovern, they'll leave too. Well, I'm lookin forward to that day. Not to be mean or anything, but its like the sayin. Xiang jian rong yi, xiang chu nan. Easy being frenz and meetin up daily, but hard to work/stay together under the same roof. talked to Kenneth too. he thought that i'll quit cause of him. but nehz...i aint got nothing against him. its just them. not me. i'm alright with him as long as he doesn't pick on me or anything. and he did tell me that he can tell i'm better den them. in terms of workin perfomance, i'm not givin him any problems, and if we work properly and good, he might even recommand us to go for trainin and all, den mayb i can get promoted to at least a supervisor. seriously lookin forward to that. just hope wad Nadea say is true. that they will go once Kristin goes back too. Though I dun like the future manager, but guess I just gotta bear with things there and carry on workin till I can find a better paid job elsewhere.
I just can't allow myself to fall for you deeper and deeper..lettin you hurt me further and further...making me feel worser and worser...i'll pull myself up n not let you put me down no further. nothin you gonna say is gonna get to me. grow up please, i aint as childish as you. aint childish as u think i am just because you are..